I just, why, life

I forgot to get up this morning. I don't mean I slept in or ignored my alarm, I mean I just forgot to get up and then it was 1 and my dad was home and he was all, 'did you get a good night's sleep?' and I was all, no, actually, last night was horrible. I heard him get up and treadmill it up and go to work and then I continued to not be able to sleep well.

I don't really want to go to the party tonight. I'm sure it'll be fun once we're there and I'm with friends, and it will be good to do something not depressing.

I applied to volunteer three different places, wait listed for one and haven't heard back from the other 2. It's a sad day when I'm worried about being accepted as a volunteer. Still unemployed.

School started guys

I've been busy.

Mostly I've been busy freaking out and becoming super depressed. Observe:

You only live once - that's one too many times.
Live every day like it's  your last - it's good to have some hope.
Believe in yourself - if those stupid people over there can survive so can you.
Today is the first day of the rest of your life - and is one day closer to death.
It's the little things in life - fuck the police.

That last one kind of broke the mold, but am I bothered? No, and you know why? Apathy.